Thursday, August 27, 2009

Four Zero

Today is the day.  I have two packs of smokes left.  40 sticks.  And I'm done.  Done smoking.

I never filled my Chantix prescription...the one I got from my doctor LAST OCTOBER.  I was pretty concerned about the "vivid dream" deal.  I've been having some crazy dreams lately and I'm too paranoid to add anything else to what my brain is already doing.

Will and Power???  I'm seeking you!

Also, I may need bail money at some point over the next few weeks.  Weaks?


Jessie said...

Wow man, good luck. I'll send you a care package if you want.

Jocelyn said...

Jessie, the care package sounds AWESOME! I'll be posting when my actual quit day occurs and maybe when I'm at the 2 week mark I'll feel great about begging for treats I've earned. :-)

(it usually takes me about 3 days to kill 2 packs. it's going to be a LONG weekend!!!)

Lady Ridesalot said...

Good Luck!! My hubby has been quit for two years now, after smoking for 32 years. He tried all the other aids, but Chantix is what helped him!

He swears by it! Maybe the dreams will haunt you too, but it's only while your taking it. He weaned off Chantix after 6 months (smoke free) and the dreams went away.

Small price to pay for healthy lungs. I'm pulling for ya!!

Mr. Motorcycle said...

Good luck! I finally quit after over twenty years of smoking by willpower alone. It is truly the only long term quit plan for most people, because if you want it bad enough to quit with nothing more than your own willpower at the time of your actual true physical and mental addiction, this is the only thing that will keep you from becoming a re-occurring smoker down the road. This is what works when you are at a bar intoxicated, and you are thinking to yourself, Oh yeah, I can have just one, or only when I drink. You will be able to remember how hard it was to quit, and realize that it isn't worth throwing it all away. Tell yourself that you are stronger than the addiction and you refuse to let it kick "your" ass! Keep telling yourself this each time you want to light up. Soon, each time you tell yourself this, it becomes easier and easier. I've been smoke free over 8 years now. Once in a while I still crave it. I don't think it will ever go away 100%. Just remember you are stronger than the addiction.

Jocelyn said...

Thanks for the encouragement Lady Ridesalot and Mr. Motorcycle! said...

OK - how did the weekend go? Still smoke free? I'm pulling for you!!!