It's no secret that I'm a big, fat girl. It is a secret that I've been hating my body for a long time now.
It's no secret that I watch Dr. Phil. It is a secret that I drank the Kool Aid from the P.I.N.K. Method show that aired November 29th. I entered the drawing to win the system and prize pack. If it's free, it's for me, right?
And then I thought about how I normally spend $80: half of an electric bill, monthly pittance to Home Depot, eating out 3 times in a week, a week of groceries, a trip to Walgreens. (Yes I spent $80 in the Walgreens but that included a Christmas present, some food, beverages and I won't have to buy hand soap or body wash for a long while. Coupons are your friends AND I managed to beat Walmart prices!!)
I really struggled with making the choice to spend money on a diet. What if I actually win the drawing? Hell, I won an iPad and lingerie money this year, I AM A WINNER! I visited the PINK website a few times that Monday and finally clicked Add To Cart at 4:00 that afternoon. If I do actually win, I'll have a system to pass to a friend. Yes, I will selfishly keep the Vitamix blender for myself but I will give away my Magic Bullet and all it's goodies with the system.
I dreaded receiving it in the mail, receiving it meant effort, work, commitment. After watching the package tracking, I did go to the post office as soon as it was delivered. I read the book Thursday afternoon and started buying diet items by Friday. There is a package of Jillian's Protein Whey Powder on my counter. I am disappointed it does not yell at you when you open it.
I did spend the weekend enjoying my last 6 pack of Coke, eating Christmas parade candy and being quite slovenly in general. It was kind of like a grieving process.
My favorite part of the PINK Method is that you kind of gradually go into it. Because of my starting size I have 14 days to spend on the Reset portion and during these 14 days all I have to do is eat right.
Day One went quite well. The breakfast smoothie was much tastier than I expected. The food prep hasn't been that bad. Sure I was grilling lean beef patties at 7:00 in the morning but on that same note, I was making lunch for a week! I did carry plenty of food with me to work, lots of veggies. And last night I only felt like processing one package of chicken breasts so I could have some dinner, but I did it.
I have horrible caffeine withdrawal headaches due to no coffee but a cup or two of green tea is helping with that. I was almost too scared to run errands at work yesterday because it is too easy to stop by somewhere to get a drink or a snack but I faced the demon and had a successful trip. Even after I dumped the ENTIRE water pitcher into the floor (AGAIN) I got back on track and drank all the water I needed to. And re-installed that shelf in the mini-fridge.
I did have a hard time when it came to preparing Junior's dinner. I had to chant I WILL NOT DESTROY MY DAY WITH BACON while I cooked him up a breakfast dinner. Same deal with breakfast, I usually chomp a few pieces of cereal when I pour his. I actually caught myself reaching into the bag, I'm glad my brain screamed NO! NO! and I listened.
It was a busy, stressful day at the office and I was really tired when I came home. After taking care of Junior's dinner, homework, reading assignments and shower time I almost broke down and to make a sandwich just to eat something but I fought it. I got up and took care of the chicken and was amazed by how much 4 ounces of chicken breast really is. I was pleasantly surprised that squeezing a lemon over some microwaved broccoli is pretty tasty, I didn't miss the salt at all. I did end up eating pretty late though.
I went to couch at 9:15, woke up at 12:30, turned off the Christmas lights and went to bed. I had some crazy dreams and was awake at 5:00, 30 minutes before the alarm went off.
Day One Results: I followed the program with zero cheats, didn't feel hungry or deprived and had a 2.5 lb weight loss.